The inside of my brain could resemble a small room full of house cats, strobe lights, and bottle rockets. Potentially.
When I was a kid I spent a lot of time alone, in my mind, romping through the woods or walking the train tracks. I looked for snakes in the creeks, sold watermelons on the side of the road, and climbed pecan trees. I didn’t read, have friends, or play video games.
I wondered a lot.
I still wonder a lot.
Perhaps my imagination and creativity come from loneliness. I am an only child with an only-child mother and a dad who was loaded with charm and full of vodka. Dad used to walk around my grandmother’s house completely naked. What an asshole.
I write in a journal every day. It helps me clear my mind, wonder, and imagine. It allows me to create, remember, and design. It helps me try and understand my emotions which are as wild as that room of cats. Some days are good, some aren’t.
I just bought a ham and egg sandwich and a large coffee for Darrell. It’s taking him a minute to eat it. He has no teeth. He walked up and sat on the curb. Too poor, dirty, and hopeless to walk inside the coffee shop.
I have no idea who he is and he has no idea who I am. I bet he weighs 20 pounds.
Life is a funny thing.
Anyway, here is what I wrote two days ago in my journal…
Be different. Unusual. Interesting. Do things to make people feel loved. Never stop having adventures. Dance in discipline. Oh lord, get clear on what you want. That is a hard one. Pray for ‘this, or something better’. Figure out your negative, limiting beliefs so you can recognize them when they pop into your mind. Then figure out a strategy to not believe them. Wear socks if you want to wear socks. Assume love when you talk to strangers. Drink room temperature water. Give your money away. Eat a banana everyday. Live in nature in a small community of positive people. Create something new every day. Listen to God whatever that means. Laugh at yourself listening to God. Don’t drink sodas. Whatever you do, figure out a way to build confidence. It’s the only way to success. Pet a dog. Don’t eat breakfast. Write handwritten letters. Don’t buy expensive soap or laundry detergent. Alkaline water is fake. Wax your back. Never be fat. Smile more than you want to. Try drugs a couple of times. Figure out what you want even if you don’t know what you want because a confident person knows what they want. Get lots of sleep but not too much. Kiss in the rain. Never wear your cell phone on your belt.
How to Enjoy Your Life
Trey
I think you’re the least judgmental man in the world...which i believe is better than the most interesting. Keep this substack alive. I love it.
My mind works the exact same way! Sometimes it's really hard to work through the noise and figure out what I am actually feeling and thinking. I really needed this today!! Thank you!
Love Is Bananas and So Is Life!!